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I look at you, I see protection.
I look at you, I see comfort.
I look at you, I see warmth.
I look at you, I see strength, will power, trust, confidence, playfulness, easiness.
I look at you, I feel Life. Breathing without obstacles. Kindness.
I dream of you, I find peacefulness.
I close my eyes, it's you I miss. A whole part of myself lays trembling to the thought of your warm palm caressing my face. My mind stays still, waiting for your breath to absorb mine, like souls transcending one another.
As I lay yearning for your presence, I find you looking at me with teary eyes. With kissing missing lips. With a hole unfilled in your life, while waiting for something to tear the guilt apart.
I do not dream of you, my love, at night, but live desperately awake during the day for I am yours and cannot be otherwise.
As one day passes by, a month is carved upon my heart. I see this in the lifeless eyes the mirror shows. I feel that in my breathing. As one night darkens the world, I turn to sounds as they might carry out the pain and turn back empty, for some more.
As one cannot find peace by avoiding life, I lay astray avoiding you. For I found love. In you, my C.